I am struggling. All the spring flowers around me are incredibly beautiful - it's overwhelming me- I don't even know where to start. I want to drink them all up!
Yet, bringing them inside seems odd. Putting a light on them seems artificial.
I looked forward to spring all year, and now it's here and I am feeling stuck- it's so beautiful outside- I just want to BE, not paint, not create, just be.
I think I will paint outside for a while- as hard as that can be.
I have lots of commission stuff piling up and I need to tackle it. Yet- I am still going to do my daily flower. I made a commitment. If I think of it as a meditation, then it doesn't really matter what the product is. It's just taking the time to sit quietly with a flower. So that's what it is going to be. I need to shut the judgemental voice in my head OFF.
I hope I am not lamenting too much here- just keeping it real.
The creative process is a journey and sometimes the road doesn't take me where I think it should go.....